Feeling the brush of Winter..

I'm getting colder and colder..

Really..

Is it become of the unusual change of weather..?

Or has it been colder than usual for me..?

That's all there is to me..

Yet, on some of the coldest days, I hope I can someday be held in the arms of my beloved..

And I hope that day draws near..

And I will wait until that day comes..

アイシテル

Aishiteru

Nani shiteru denwa goshide itoshii koe ga Hibiku
Tameratteru tatta hitokoto sukitoyuu Kotomone baby...
Meni mienai monodakara koso ushinatte Shimaisoude fuandayou
Kimino koega togireru toki
Itamu munega zutto sakenderu

Aishiteru aishiteru chippokena boku dakedo Kimiwo ushinai takunaiyo
Onaji sora bokura itsumo
Shiawase no imi sagashiteru

Kkangaegoto shiteru kimi hohoenderu kimi
Kizukazuni toori sugiteiku kakegaenai hibine Baby...
Sasae atte ikiteiku koto kimi tono deai de Manandayo
Nagareru sora wo oikakete 
Bokutachiwa issho ni
Ikiteru

Aishiteru kimi ga ireba mirai no koto nani Mo Mienakuttemo kowakunai
Daijoubu yorisotteki sugoshite shiawase wa Kitto Itsuka kuru kara

Nandomeka no kenka no toki kimi wa naiteta Demo suki to itta
Ikura naki sakendatte otona ni nante Narenakutte
Shiawase ni nareruka datte wakaranai
Tsuyogatte miru keredo itsuwari wa hitottsu Mo Nai oh baby boku wa tada
Kimi wo aishiteru dake yeah...

Aishiteru aishiteru chippokena boku dakedo Kimiwo ushinai takunaiyo
Onaji sora bokura itsumo
Shiawase no imi sagashiteru

Aishiteru aishiteru futari no kotoba ga Kasanatteru
Natsu no sora yasashiku bokura tsutsumu
Shiawase wa ima koko ni aru

Why do the tears still fall...?

Feeling out of character, I still find the courage to look up at the sky..

But...

But....

But.....

Why am I still crying..?

Why do these tears still fall down my cheeks..?

Why do I feel like there is nothing left for me..?

And once more..

I look up into the starry night sky,

Feeling all alone as always..

Although..

Knowing that there are others too,

Out there,

Watching the skies like I am now..

Searching for something that can bind us all..

And I felt a tugging..

A tiny nudge..

Sorrow..

You are my greatest love...

Pride..

You are my greatest ally..

Nothing else can stop the hurt..

The pain..

The tears..

And I still wonder..

Why do these tears still fall..?

Live Like You Were Dying...

I found this great book (it's like a small book you can keep in your bag) and I figured that the title was worth keeping.. Anyone would wanna live their lives like they were dying.. And Tim McGraw recorded a song of the same title.. It's the greatest song.. It inspires you in a way one can't imagine.. Like he said, 'Each person have his or her own definition of what it means to "live like you were dying".. I'll post the lyrics up.. I recommend the song (although it's pretty old) Lol.. ^^ 

Tim McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying (2003)

He said I was in my early 40's,
With a lot of life before me, 
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.
How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,

[Chorus]

I went sky divin', 
I went rocky mountain climbin', 
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper, 
And I spoke sweeter, 
And I gave forgiveness I've been denying, 
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.

He said I was finally the husband, 
That most the time I wasn't.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin' fishing, 
Wasn't such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I'd do
If I could do it all again.
And then.

[Chorus]

Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity
To think about what you do with it,
What could you do with it, what can
I do with with it, what would I do with it.

[Chorus]
Sky divin', 
I went rocky mountain climbin', 
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper, 
And I spoke sweeter, 
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.

Rainy days & laughter..

I've been getting bored everytime.. So, the only thing I could do is watch the rainfalls and read mangas online.. Found some seriously interesting ones.. Totally hilarious and the characters are so adorable.. Anyways, this post is gonna be short, since I'm not going anywhere for holiday.. SucX right? P&S are gonna be angry.. Haven't started anything on them, so, maybe another time when I feel like it.. ^^

Softly....

I kinda lost track of time.. Been reading mangas all week and have been absorbed into their world.. Stories are the only thing that can connect me & me.. Softly.. Gently.. I've been preoccupied with a sad feeling of belonging in their world, that they are also connections to my world and my heart.. And so, some part of me is feeling the pain of not rejoicing in it.. Yet, there's a certain freedom.. And in their world and mine, I am free.. From all things.. And that's what I've wanted for the longest time.. Freedom....

Christmas & Distress

Getting into the Christmas spirit is gonna take a whole load of help.. Thinking of getting away to KL.. If not, maybe a nice tropical beach somewhere.. Exams are finally over and i can feel the pang of boredom creeping up my spine.. Figured that i'll probably do some writing [I only had 5% of it done.. O_O] *cries* I'm wishing for lots of presents this year.. Need to make the most of the holidays.. =_="" I haven't started the one on P&S.. Need to get on it soon.. Or else.. O_O I've got to get my eyes checked.. Keep seeing funny stuff.. Anyways, I'd probably post up the first chapter of my first story [wrote it in pencil and my friends had trouble making out the words cause of my TINY tiny hadwriting..] So, tune in for that.. And chapter 2 is still in the works.. ^^ 

Ciao!

~Canvases of bright colors filled a backdrop of black and white. As the tree stood up high into the sky, spectators gathered round. But not me. I stood farthest from the ever growing crowd of people, silently watching and waiting for a miracle on that cold, snowy night. I saw it first, my companion, a beautiful black cat with eyes as clear as crystal. I picked him up and scratched behind his ears, purring in pleasure. I walked home with him in my arms. Stepping across the threshold, I set him down on the ground and fished for my keys. I felt a hand on my shoulders and turned around to come face to face with a set of crystal-clear eyes. His fair skin stood out in the darkness of the night. He wore black all over and his hair was a curly mass of black. I sucked in my breath.

"Could I possibly stay the night?" he asked.

"New York is not a safe place for a girl like me to take you in, even for a night.."~